Another Poem

Sometimes You Need To Let It Go

You cannot change what happened, or bring back the past.
But you can change the future by being strong;
And having faith in yourself.
A lot lies ahead of you...hope and new beginnings.
So take life by the horns and turn it around.

Be a warrior, not a victim.

Author unknown

Clearing

Do not try to save
the whole world
or do anything grandiose.
Instead, create
a clearing
in the dense forest
of your life
and wait there
patiently,
until the song
that is your life
falls into your own cupped hands
and you recognize and greet it.
Only then will you know
how to give yourself
to this world
so worth of rescue.

by Martha Postlewaite

Sports Weekend

Oops!  I completely forgot to take pictures over the weekend.  It was a sports filled weekend with soccer on Saturday for my son.  Indoor, of course, as we are in feet of snow and subzero temps.  Today was packed with sports with our son playing in a futsal tournament, our daughter had a volleyball tournament and I was coaching my volleyball team at the same tournament.  This is what life is all about - family!  Needless to say, my daughter and I are pooped after today.

Since my daughter doesn't have a car, I drove the kids to school.  I believe even if she had her car, she wouldn't be willing to drive it.  It caused me to be late for work, but that was okay.  I felt assured I would know my kids were safe at school and I knew my daughter would feel best with someone else driving. 

We passed the accident site where the snow is still ruffed up from the accident.  I could sense the pain and fear in my daughter.  Life must go on though.  She feared going to school because she knew the kids would be relentless in teasing her...and they were.  Even a teacher made a negative comment.  Not sure where our society is going wrong, but we seem to have forgotten positive feedback goes much farther than negative teasing.

Today we are closing another chapter on this year.  And, although the accident still looms over our heads, it was a beautiful morning for a ride out in the country.  This photo was taken after dropping the kids off at school while heading into work.

An Accident

Hold your seats...this chapter turns pretty scary.  This winter has been the absolute worst ever and I take this as a sign.  If you read my old blog notes back in the summer of 2013, you will see that I had a huge decision to not only go back to work full-time, but to add a one hour each way drive to my day with a commute. This job takes me far away from my family at a quick emergency notice and it doesn't make this ex-stay-at-home mom and business owner very comfortable.

The past several months I have endured constant illness with my daughter which has equated to doctor appointments and taking off work.  Then there was the morning my daughter called in tears stating her brother was passed out cold on the bathroom floor.  And, yes, both my husband and I were already at work.  Me an hour away and him at least 35 minutes away.

Well, the snow globe was dumping and we had lake affect snow this morning.  My commute was horrible.  And then that phone call came in.  The kids had rolled over on the way to school.  I went into instant panic attack mode and had to turn around and drive back to save my kids from the cold and snow and dangers of an overturned vehicle.  I knew it wouldn't be a quick trip and it seemed like years. 

To say my heart sank when I saw the police lights is an understatement.  I felt a chill and it was as if someone had died.  The picture of my daughter's overturned vehicle will forever haunt me.  I realized today that my family is most important to me and that my job can't come first and that is okay.

Hello 2014!

Today is the first day of my 365 page book.  I am determined to create my story this year.  The story will unfold here in this blog.  I have already written down my goals and objectives for this year.  Unlike any other year, I have decided to create a somewhat general goal which will cover many aspects of my life.  The objectives will be many in order to accomplish my main goal for the year.  I want this year to be unlike any other year in that I finally finish things.  You see, I find myself attempting to accomplish many things and doing many things -- just not doing anything well. 

This has to change!  I must resolve to be focused and finish the second half of my life doing what I love and finally getting our family life and financial future on track.