A Reflection In the Mirror

On October 11th, I turned the ripe age of 45 years old. It is a known fact that I have never liked the 'fives'......25, 35, and now 45. I feel as though I have climbed to the top of the hill and now I am on my downward travel to yet another decade and one closer to the end of life. My personality is one of a child....even at 45 years of age. However, the mirror does not lie.

As a woman, I notice all the changes taking place to my body and my mind. There have been days I looked into the mirror and had no idea who it was staring back at me. Yes, the wrinkles and sags are starting to become the norm. Gray hair is in abundance. And, well, quite honestly things are moving downhill fast.

Don't get me wrong. Being a forty-five year old woman does have some advantages. In the workplace you are much more respected. Younger generations call you "ma'am" (which I absolutely hate). People tend to listen to a forty-five year old because you have the experience of life. Salaries tend to be higher because of your experience. Positives, yes, but I still don't want to grow up nor do I want to deal with the changes age has to offer to me as a female.

With my entrance into what I like to call "the center of life" stage, I have been doing a lot of reflecting. What I have found is that something is still missing and I don't quite know what it is yet. Even though I feel completely blessed, satisfied, and happy with my daily surroundings, I feel an underlying pressure to save the world, or make a difference, be known for something great, find success, and find the true me. A bit ADD....definitely.

Focus has not been a strong characteristic for me recently and seems to be more difficult for me as I age. So focus is one area I am going to work extremely hard to fix. With that said, I am also going to record my journey into "the center of life" stage and beyond, working hard to post more and hope to create a captive audience. Join me on my journey....I have no idea where it is going to take me.....but it is going to be a bumpy yet fun ride.

Cheers!