Today is the first day of a new school year and the last day of summer for the kids. Funny how something has to end in order for something to begin. Today is also the eve of a new start to my life and the eve to what will change how our family lives each day.
In February of 1997, my husband and I came to the agreement I would stay home to raise our children. Not allowing for someone else to raise our children. To give our children a parent to count on every day. We chose not to pay the high price of daycare - both for financial reasons and for emotional reasons. Today is the day before that lifestyle ends. Although I have always found work outside of our home, there has always been the flexibility to work part-time, freelance, or on a contract basis. Tomorrow this flexibility comes to an end.
I find myself saddened and frustrated that I could not make it until our children graduated from high school to make this leap. Our economy has forced this decision and I will now leap into the demands of the corporate world. Leaving my dream of teaching and coaching sports behind me and digging my feet into the cut throat marketing world. A world which intrigues and scares me all at once.
As I watched my two high school children drive away for school this morning, I wondered how they felt and if they would be alright today. It is just as hard today as it was the day they walked into kindergarten and first grade. Tomorrow will be a whole new uneasiness as I drive almost an hour away from home...where I have felt comfort and control of nurturing my family.
It has been too long since I updated this blog. I will now use this as my journal for a new journey in my life. To help me heal with the decisions forced upon me and to hopefully hear from other mothers out there facing some of the same changes in their lives.
In February of 1997, my husband and I came to the agreement I would stay home to raise our children. Not allowing for someone else to raise our children. To give our children a parent to count on every day. We chose not to pay the high price of daycare - both for financial reasons and for emotional reasons. Today is the day before that lifestyle ends. Although I have always found work outside of our home, there has always been the flexibility to work part-time, freelance, or on a contract basis. Tomorrow this flexibility comes to an end.
I find myself saddened and frustrated that I could not make it until our children graduated from high school to make this leap. Our economy has forced this decision and I will now leap into the demands of the corporate world. Leaving my dream of teaching and coaching sports behind me and digging my feet into the cut throat marketing world. A world which intrigues and scares me all at once.
As I watched my two high school children drive away for school this morning, I wondered how they felt and if they would be alright today. It is just as hard today as it was the day they walked into kindergarten and first grade. Tomorrow will be a whole new uneasiness as I drive almost an hour away from home...where I have felt comfort and control of nurturing my family.
It has been too long since I updated this blog. I will now use this as my journal for a new journey in my life. To help me heal with the decisions forced upon me and to hopefully hear from other mothers out there facing some of the same changes in their lives.
